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THE DIAMOND OF BREATH FOR HEALTHY LIVING

from: Devapath

Life is a great energy and gives us a great opportunity: live the fire of life and you will transcend all boundaries of the body and the mind and will find ultimate ecstasy. The wind that keeps this fire alive is our breath. We call it the diamond of breath because it offers so many facets to enrich and enlighten our life. My vision of a healthy life is: 40 years of running for excitement, 40 years of walking for relaxation and 40 years of sitting for silence until disappearing. To become 120 years old or more will soon become normal. For this to happen there are certain factors, which will have to be taken care of: food, exercise, sex, emotional balancing, opening the heart, creativity and meditation. Last but not least in the centre of all stands the breath like a bridge between all the dimensions of our life.

The way you breathe is the way you live. The way you live is the way you breathe. Deep breathing keeps you healthy and shallow breathing has you walking on the permanent edge to dis-ease. To support your deep breathing you can choose either a more Tantric and spontaneous approach or a more Yogic and disciplined approach. However, in the centre of your opening to a deeper breath you will need to work on your diaphragm.

The soul of healthy breathing

The ancient Greeks localized the seat of the soul in the middle of our body around the height of the diaphragm. Even if we don’t agree, at least we have to acknowledge that the diaphragm is the most important breath-supporting muscle complex. As such it is the key to our breathing and it strongly influences all our important life-supporting processes.
The diaphragm reaches across the middle of our body, at the point where the chest and the belly meet. It is fixed on the lower part of the chest bone, the lower rib cage, the spine and close to the back and belly muscles, thus it separates the upper and the lower body. It is not only an organ for breathing but it also connects and integrates the two worlds around the belly and the chest – physiologically, psychologically and energetically.
The diaphragm works in the middle of our body -- moving up with the exhalation and down with the inhalation. In a relaxed state inhalation and exhalation are in good balance. The smooth, rhythmical contraction and relaxation of the diaphragm and other related muscles allows the breath to move like a gentle wave through our body and may give us an oceanic feeling of life.
There are many movements in nature, which remind me of how the diaphragm works. Often I find myself gazing at large birds flying with ease high in the sky and I enjoy seeing trees waving in the wind or the play of a leaf being carried away by a strong breeze. All these make me breathe.
Once I was scuba diving in the Mexican Caribbean and was lucky to see a stingray – a big flat fish – gliding with its huge wings over the ocean floor. I was amazed at what a beautiful feeling its harmonious movements could trigger in my body merely by watching it! It was that day that I realized the language of a relaxed diaphragm.

Health and rejuvenation through inner massage

One of the most forgotten miracles of our body is its ability to massage, cleanse and heal itself by natural breathing. Through the rising and falling movement of the diaphragm each breath massages all areas and organs of our body. This massage eliminates waste material, supports the blood flow, relaxes tensions and keeps us open and energetic, thus allowing good blood circulation and oxygen saturation on the level of microcirculation in all body tissues.
From Chinese medicine it is known that body or organ tensions are often related to unresolved physical and psychological stress. It is interesting that in the diaphragm the physical and the psychological meet in a biological structure. It combines two different muscular systems, one we can consciously use to activate our breathing and release stress, the other working unconsciously and autonomously, which means that it breathes and releases stress without us even being aware of it.
Psychologically speaking, the diaphragm and our breathing are a meeting point of our conscious and unconscious. That is why the massage like movement of the diaphragm supports our physiological as much as our psychological wellbeing and prevents us from developing dis-ease.
In our chest the movement of the breath wave caused by the diaphragm massages the lungs, the heart and the thymus gland, which is important for the strengthening of our immune system. It is also vibrating into the neck, the head and the arms. That’s why healthy breathing and a flexible body structure are essential especially for preventing heart and related vascular dis-ease. The wave of breathing reaches the heart from the outside, where its life-supporting vessels are located, and keeps them open and young. This allows the blood to nourish and energize the heart muscle.
One important psychological risk factor for heart attack is often overlooked; it is hidden animosity. This means nothing more than blocked emotions, especially repressed anger. Blocking emotions is only possible by blocking the movement of our breathing, we contract our chest, tighten our belly and hold our breath. The wave of breathing can’t unfold to give the heart and its vessels a deep cleansing massage and with time they may close and threaten our life.
The effect of the diaphragm’s breath massage on other organs is similar. For example, breath massage keeps the solar plexus, the sun center of our nervous system, relaxed and “shining.” We experience it as a feeling of physical and psychological warmth, which protects us from the dark night of depression. Imagine the solar plexus is like the inner sun of our inner body’s universe, whatever lives inside this universe is affected by its warm radiation!
In the belly the wave of breathing supports the digestive organs. Bowl movement supported by deep breathing is good for our digestion, that’s why a little walk after a good meal can greatly help our digestion. Finally, our respiration reaches to the pelvis and massages, cleans and revitalizes our reproductive organs. Therefore, obviously, correct breathing is essential for our sexual health.
The quality of this inner massage depends on the strength and rhythm of our breathing. The better we breathe, the deeper the massage will be, and the better our health will be. In short, with each breath life is massaging us! With each breath life is touching, cleaning and rejuvenating our body. A good touch feels like love for the body, and with each breath we can feel loved by existence, with each breath we can feel that we are part of this beautiful life.

Laughing for health

My first meditation with Osho was the morning laughing meditation. When you wake up and before you open your eyes just start laughing or giggling for three to five minutes. If you have sound sensitive neighbors do it under your blankets. It gives you a beautiful awakening and somehow works into a the whole day by giving you a little endorphin shot – a shot of hormones which make you feeling happy and relax your mind.
Laughing is probably the most holistic exercise you can do because it involves more muscles in its activity than any other exercise. If you like you can repeat it any time during the day. If you want to make it a true resource of deep breathing into health than go for Oshos Mystic Rose Meditation. This meditation combines laughing, crying, watching the breath and celebration is the ultimate rejuvenation therapy. That’s why we make it an important part of our breath training education. (This article includes an except from Devapaths soon to be published little book on the diamond of breath)

Remember, a laugh a day keeps the doctor away!

MIASTO, MY LOVE! THE MYSTIC MOUNTAIN

This article is about the big inner growth centre OSHO MIASTO in Tuscani, Italy, which is home to the OSHO BREATH ENERGY SCHOOL

from: Devapath

For the first time I came to Miasto in the nineties. I still remember how mysterious it felt driving through Tuscany in the sunset along the highway from Firenze towards Colle Val Delsa. Entering the last kilometres up to the mountain through the dense forest was like entering the hidden path to a mystic castle.

With Shunyo, a good therapist friend, I was facilitating a program called “Transforming the quality of life”. Originally it was a three month long program in the Osho Multiversity in Poona and now we wanted to bring a taste of this beautiful process to Miasto. We had a very sweet group of participants and really enjoyed having our morning sessions in the group room and in the afternoon a work project outside.

Our work project was to create a little sitting area for meditation and contemplation in the forest at the little pond in the very back of Miasto close to the back entrance to “Dream Woods” – Manfredos artistic wonderland of miniature stone cities hidden in the dark forest. Today, whenever I pass there, I still enjoy remembering this beautiful experience.

THE JOY OF LIVING INTENSELY

Some days ago a friend came from the Mystic Rose Meditation Retreat and I asked him how he felt in Miasto. He could not wait answering and it popped out of him: “Great! Great! I love it! It was so intense to be there!

Exactly this is what I feel whenever I visit – everything is so intense – from the meetings with friends to the therapeutic work in the group room or the daily meditations. For almost twenty years I spent a good part of my life in Osho’s centres and communes and here in Miasto I realize what we all have learned in these years – the art of living intensely.

Some people say, to be with Osho is like living through many life times at once. I agree and being in Miasto gives you a real taste of it. The day is full of joyful activities that there is no time for the mind to think, to worry, for getting depressed or whatever our “normal problems” are. We are just living a little more in the moment and that’s the secret to enjoy our life a little more too!

Before the mind gets started you are already in Dynamic Meditation. After shower and great breakfast – the croissants in Miasto are the best - the group session starts and throws you into your inner world. Ah, great lunch is coming! And off you are already for the next group session followed by famous Kundalini Meditation.

Then comes the peak of the day – Osho’s White Robe Brotherhood and you dance ecstatically before Osho talks you into the land of inner peace and silence. At dinner, which is always a masterpiece of Miasto’s fancy cooking crew, you realize how fast the day has passed. You feel like living through a whole lifetime in one day, fulfilled and happy. And what was the key? Intensity, totality!

A MULTIVERSITY FOR HUMAN GROWTH

For fifteen years I have worked as a therapist and later on also as a director of the Centre for Transformation, which was one of the faculties in the Osho Multiversity in Poona. Osho wanted us to bring all approaches of human growth to His commune to help us preparing for his meditations. He created nine faculties and called this university of life a Multiversity.

I love this approach and I always had the dream that one day it can become a model for all universities in the world. The beauty of Miasto’s group program is that its program is deeply embedded in this vision and truly offers the best methods for inner transformation, which you can find in the world.

I like that it keeps us therapists connected even if it’s only for a short meeting of saying “hallo!” or sitting in the evening meditation together. I like it because it shows that many ways can lead to meditation and people from many corners of the world can come together.

Since Miasto introduced the living in the commune program I also feel a big change of energy happening. It feels more and more like one organism moving together and where I am included even if I am a guest only for a short time. It feels a new space of friendship has opened, where residents, living in the commune program and group participants move together.

As a therapist I love that finally I have a program available, which I can recommend to people who have done lots of therapy and look for an experience of living in a commune like the one I had in my communes – friends who want to move from individual and group therapy to communal therapy.

CELEBRATING WITH FRIENDS

Miasto is really a unique place! Once in a while I participate in Dynamic Meditation or lead it in Buddha Hall. Afterwards I love to have my first morning coffee in the rising morning sun on the terrace in front of the bar. It’s so romantic! – I love the Sannyas celebrations Sunday evening when friends celebrate their spiritual rebirth by getting a new name. There is so much heartfelt energy and mind-blowing ecstasy like most people can only dream of!

Yes, Osho White Robe Meditation is my favourite meditation and I still remember how it was in the beginning when I came to Miasto. The Buddha-hall was quite empty for the evening meditation and once I asked a staff member: “ Why is nobody coming? - “It reminds us too much on the church!” was the answer. I thought, wow, you little rebels, that exactly Osho is de-conditioning us from. Rebellion has passed and today it’s really far out.

Yes, I love this gathering of friends where there is no therapist or participant anymore and we all sit together in the luxury boat called “Osho White Robe Brotherhood” sailing towards the eternal ocean of love and consciousness.

Have you heard about “Osho Miasto Village”? That’s how I call the community of friends, which have settled around the commune of Miasto and which grows year by year. It’s amazing to go to Saturday night’s dinner and disco in the warm summer nights, the Osho celebrations or the New Years Eve party and see how the village comes together and celebrates.

It’s lovely to live in this surrounding of friends and be able to explore inner and outer nature. I enjoy so much Nordic Walking and a mountain bike drive in the forest or on special occasions to visit with friends one of the great Italian restaurants around for a good pizza. A little trip to Sienna, to the ocean or one of the hotels with swimming pool and hot spring close by makes life here really juicy.

A SPIRITUAL POWER STATION

Last time when we left Miasto my beloved asked me: “Can you also feel that leaving the place your energy changes?” – “Yes!” I said and we remembered that each time when we come here we have a similar experience. Entering the compound is feeling like getting connected to electricity and leaving it is like unplugging from it.

Exactly the same I have experienced in all strong Buddha-fields with Osho – being it in Poona or on the ranch in America or in the European Communes. It is like recharging my spiritual batteries for moving on along the path of transformation.

I travel around the world and I am always looking forward to come back to Miasto to recharge my batteries and be with friends. That’s why I have also settled close to my most beloved Buddha-field. Here I can feel Osho being so present and here I can allow my little Buddha inside to relax and take a deep breath again.

This rebellious place of friends has not only resisted several attempts to close it down but has developed in such a way that it feels like being in the garden of the beloved and rejoicing on the divine path of love and meditation. I have found my “Little Poona”.

Thank you so much, beloveds of Miasto!
Thank you so much, Osho!

Devapath

THE MIRACLE OF PRENATAL LIFE

A Journey from Conception to Birth

from: Devapath

Zen masters liked to asked new adepts who wanted to enter the path of meditation: ”where have you been before your father was born?!” They asked one of their typical questions to open the eyes of the disciple for the dimension beyond the body-mind and its many fold limitations. In fact it’s a question, which comes closer to us the more we unveil the mysteries of the body and the functioning of the mind. Where have we been before our conception and where will we go after death? Who we really are? Who is inside us?

The big bang of conception

Our parents coming together to have sex in love, ambivalent feelings or in animosity is the beginning of our physical life. Our conception is our very individual big bang creating the universe of our body as the outer universe starts its new life with a big bang too. If we believe the experience of reincarnation it’s the moment when our soul enters the body. From now on our life will expand with each breath unto the moment we get pulled into the black hole of death and disappear into the cosmic breath again.

Usually we connect the beginning of our life with the meeting of the male sperm and the female egg. Scientists describe watching this moment like a fascinating and highly energetic dance of life. The male cell dances excitedly around the female egg before it merges into it. This is the real birthday of our life, when these two cells melt together surrounded by an ocean of sexual energy. In this moment thousand of years of evolution are transferred to a new generation. The new life receives all the information of life since it’s beginning and only thirty hours later the multiplication of the cell begins.

Conception is the true primal scream, happening long before birth where A. Janov places it. A new life explodes into existence with all the information it gets from the parents. This information will be now like background music of its physical, emotional and mental life. My work with regression in this period of life suggests an actually logical assumption: The relationship of the parents to their own sex and to each other is reflected in this moment of conception and gets imprinted into the new being. It will follow us like an aura around our life. Some parents, who have a deep connection with each other and their child, even remember the exact time of the conception. For others it was an accident or a tragedy changing their life.

The new being remembers if the mother or father condemned their sex, didn’t love their body or hated them selves. It remembers if the parents met in love; or if the father violently lived his aggression and the mother just gave her body in passive aggression. It remembers the pain or the happiness, the love or the pleasure the parents had in their encounter. - Often people in my therapeutic work are shocked to recognize this side of their parents. They have learnt to see them as neutral beings, but now they show themselves truly sexual and overwhelmed by their hormones. Hardly anybody can remember having seen them being naked, having sex or sharing their passion and sexual desires before.

Primal regressions, Trance Energetic Breathing, deep hypnosis, dreams or visions can make us these first life imprints available. The great meeting of the germ and the ovum melting together and becoming a zygote happens in the woman’s oviduct, which leads from the ovum to the uterus. After a long and adventurous journey the sperm reaches there in front of a million other sperms. I remember strong dreams of falling and ending up in a big explosion, which I could relate to this time. Also visions of travelling through a time channel and being born into another lifetime seem to be closely related ideas.

The trust the sperm has in pushing forward and the trust the ova has in embracing the sperm and taking it in, may effect how these two energies get developed in the new being. The first programming of our male and female energies happens. Conception being a celebration makes life being a celebration. Conception a suffering makes life a misery.

The oceanic experience of the womb

After travelling down the oviduct, reaching the womb and undergoing six to seven cell divisions, a week has past and a new event is about to take place – implantation. The mother’s state of being, which is strongly influenced by her partner and the family around, has a strong impact on how soft and prepared the womb is to receive the growing cell clump. D. Boadella describes it like a landing on the moon. In fact here might be the origin of our fascination for manned travel into space.

Out of floating in space like a spaceship, the zygote sinks down into the wall of the womb. A tense womb might create a feeling or rejection, which is like landing on the cold Rocky Mountains. A soft womb invites for the feeling of landing in the warm and welcoming summer grass or ocean beach. This is our first landing on solid ground and it effects the foundation of our trust into life. R. Lang describes the womb as the soil, the embryo as the seed, the developing umbilical cord as the stem and the fetus as the fruit. Nine month later the fruit will be ready to be expelled and like a ripe corn it falls out of the mother plants leaves.

After implantation the embryo grows out of three layers. The outer layer called the ectoderm builds the brain and the neural canal. The middle layer called the mesoderm creates the heart, which will start beating after twenty-five days. The inner layer called the endoderm becomes the gut and forms the digestive organs and the lungs. We have seen before the close connection between the intestines and the lungs for the digestion of emotions. The formation and building of organs and tissues takes only around one hundred days and the embryo will grow a hundred times bigger until the moment of ex-plantation at birth.

During the first three month the embryos inner and outer body structure develops and its inner organs begin to form. In the second three month the embryo begins to use its sensing organs. Now it is able to sense itself and the world outside its own cosmos, the womb. At around six-month the body and senses have developed enough that the embryo can begin to explore its surroundings. He learns to float and move around like an astronaut in the gravitational field, begins to express his emotions with his body and even uses his body movements to send signals about his state of being to the mother. Body language is his first kind of communication.

We should remember that its body has just the consistence of jelly and is extremely sensitive to all kind of influences in the interactive space of the womb. Whatever touches the mother’s body, feeling or breathing will influence the unborn too. That’s why she needs a maximum of relaxation and silence around her. Disturbances such as a heavy argument with the partner, strong feelings of fear and insecurity or rejection and ambivalence towards the child, a failed abortion, sexual abuse or smoking, drinking and drug abuse can be devastating to each of the developing states. Even schizophrenia with its broken relationship to the surrounding world is seen related to shock in the prenatal period of development.

A child, which is feeling wanted and cared for in the womb, is born naturally and is allowed to develop a healthy bonding with the mother after birth, has made the most important experiences to grow healthy. On the opposite stress, fear and rejection by the mother during pregnancy can lead to slow growth, drug addiction, feeling unworthy, a burden or abundant, leading to self-hate, the paranoia of being destroyed or the tendency for suicide. – Interestingly our brain’s cortex develops and refines its structures from the third month of pregnancy unto the first years of our life. It needs an especially calm atmosphere to build as many connections as possible and is very sensitive to emotional destruction of the mother.

One of my main character traits is the fear of not being able to survive. Once in a while I used to wake up in the very early morning tortured from worries of my mind of not being able to survive or being left alone in a new city. Then after more than thirty years of silence my mother finally told me that I don’t know my physical father. That she left him after a very loving sexual experience, which was the beginning of my life, because she realized, that he had already a family. For a moment she was totally alone and on her own in the years after war without material background. Without her mentioning it I understood that she must have thought about abortion and felt a deep insecurity before marrying my present father.

The prenatal period has formed our life in a way we haven’t realized yet. Ignoring the time in the womb is probably another aspect of female and sexual repression. But already in old Egypt the conserved placenta of the pharaoh was carried in front of big processions as a symbol of security. In many cultures the placenta has been a symbol for the tree of life and the vision of paradise is nothing less than the desire to come back home to the womb. The way we cultivate our homes with comfortable interior reminds me as much on the longing for a safe and cozy womb as the fetish like addiction to cars. Sitting in a comfortable car, which moves by itself with a minimum of noise and a maximum of comfort and security, is the perfect imitation of a walking womb - our mother’s womb. It misses only the most important element – love.

The experience of the womb is probably the most impressionable adventure of our life because it is about the origin of our life. A relaxed womb connects us with an “oceanic feeling” as S. Freud calls it, a “cosmic streaming” in the words of W. Reich or a “mystic unity” following S. Grof. - The fearful tense womb is the origin of our endless need for safety and security, our eruptions of violence in order to release our deepest fears and frustrations and our addiction to drugs, to get at least a glimpse of the oceanic feeling we always missed. A contracted womb is a result of sexual repression, great stress or deep rejection of the child. It is a life damaging if not life destroying nightmare.  A relaxed womb is the lost paradise we are longing and looking for in our spiritual search.

The agony and ecstasy of birth

It was a Capricorn’s struggle uphill for the endless time of 48 hours to see the light of life. This time was needed for the combined effort of my mother, father, the doctors and myself to pass through the birth canal. The doctors ignored the urgent call of my father to take care until I was half on the way and they had to intervene. My mother giving birth to her first beloved child in difficult circumstances, fall into total exhaustion. After getting stuck I finally got pulled out with forceps, squeezing my head a bit longer than it already was. Well, this way I moved at least my birthday a bit closer to the visionary world of the astrological sign of Aquarius.

And what is the outcome? I have a visionary mind with a good connection to mother earth. When others think I am crazy and have given up long ago I still keep marching on. But then the trouble comes. Just one step before the goal I tend t collapse, following the program of my birth. I need help to go the last little step and end a project. But luckily by then enough others can see that it is possible and jump on the train like the doctors once finally did. The episode of my birth has taught me the best lesson of programming in the process of birth. For many years Dynamic Birth Integration has been the focus of my therapeutic work with regression.

In fact birth is a very complex event and the most extreme encounter between the unborn baby and the mother. It is a heroic fight for survival and liberation and the entrance into a totally unknown world. It is a confrontation with the fear of dying and the will to live. It is jumping aboard the train of life and it is such a tremendously, energetic event, that we are hardly able to experience it consciously. Some mothers describe it as their strongest orgasm and others as the ultimate pain.

When the embryo has grown big it covers the entire space of the wombs universe. The uterine walls get closer like the shores of an ocean getting closer as the ship approaches the land. In trust it feels exciting and even relaxing to enter these shores again, as we feel safe being able to feel our feet on land again. In trust we love to be hugged and enclosed in the arms of a friend quite similar to being hugged by the mothers womb. We are ready to surrender to the pressure, because we feel it as close, intimate contact. We have enough space to give in, without having to protect ourselves.

When the mother’s contractions begin to move the baby out, the stronger and more pleasant feelings of being enclosed actually can be enjoyed by it. The trusting unborn is flexible enough to allow the coming and going contractions, because there is no muscle armor. It trusts if the mother trusts and relaxes and allows her self to feel the contractions passing through her surrendered body and mind, like contractions of an orgasm. Eva Reich, W. Reich’s daughter, even suggested stimulating the female genitals in order to help the birth.

When the time is right, the closed womb opens its door into the birth canal. The baby’s body is moved along the approximately fifteen centimeter long birth canal, through the highly charged sexual area of the mother. Finally reaching out and being received with joy and warmth on its mother’s belly with her waiting, full and strong breasts and hold by her strong and warm arms feels like a memory of the womb. It allows the baby a soft landing in this world where it can enjoy its first deep and gentle breath into life. This primal breath is opening its lungs to become the motor of its life. Breathing into life with trust brings the best foundation for a life in love, joy and health.

It’s a wonderful perspective, but far from our reality! Which mother is really relaxed in birth, sexually undisturbed by morality and capable of surrendering to birth like to orgasm? That’s why true birth preparation needs to begin before she is even pregnant. During pregnancy it’s too late to work on deep sexual and mental conditioning because the unborn needs all the calmness possible and a deeply emotional mother will only harm the child inside her belly. - O. Rank, A. Janoy, F. Leboyer, D. Boadelly, S. Grof and others have contributed exciting insights into birth, interestingly all man. Summarizing my experiences, the stages of birth have the following order.

The oceanic stage in the womb follows the implantation in the placenta and is a time of peaceful expansion and floating in paradise like circumstances in the womb’s ocean like fluids. The mother’s body takes everything care of. – The first signs of birth appear with the compression stage, when the womb starts becoming too narrow and an exchange of pressure between the uterine walls and the unborn begins. It’s an exchange of pleasurable contact or a horrifying experience of “I don’t come out here!” “I’ll die!” feeling of running against a wall, being trapped in an elevator, hopeless or fainting.

The second sign of birth is the expulsion stage with the experience of moving through the birth canal usually headfirst. The days before, the unborn slowly has turned around and is now standing on the head ready for the go. What comes now is either a fast run through the birth canal comparable to the slipping down a slope as children like it so much. Or it is a murderous experience in total darkness, the body loosing its protective position, unbearable pressure from all sides and the loss of all synchronization with the mother. Pulse waves move like thunder through the blood vessels and their intense high pressure on the nerves unloads like internal blizzards in the brain. In a kind of thunderstorm the baby moves through hell towards its birth. It falls into coma.

A baby, who learns that it has to collapse in order to come out because the navel cord hangs around its neck, will be programmed for life to collapse. A baby who learns that it has to fight to come out is programmed to fight for its life all life long. The one who comes too late always intends to come too late and the one that comes too early will always come to early. The one who needed pressure to come out will always look for pressure to fulfill a task and the one who did not need extra pressure will be always faster. The one who is taking out by cesarean birth will always wait for somebody to do it for him and miss the well grounding struggle of birth. The birth programming is amazingly simple to follow into our daily life!

The welcoming stage is our exit from the birth canal through the sexual organ of our mother’s body into a New World. The transfer from the inner protective world of the womb into the warm arms of the mother is a loving and nourishing welcome. The transfer into the sterile and fridge like operation room, which we find in most hospitals, is a shock for the rest of our life and the cause of numerous sufferings. The mechanical handling of the new born, the early cutting of the umbilical cord and separation from the mother, the use of drugs instead of natural breathing pattern during birth, altogether create the most disastrous experience in life. With shocked senses we enter the mystery of life, unable to trust the new and the beautiful. We are already deeply disturbed in our relationship with our mother and the world we don’t even know yet.